Alicia Keys Opens Up About What She Went Through With Her Second Pregnancy

In her upcoming memoir, More Myself, the 39-year-old singer reveals she considered not going through with her pregnancy in 2014 when she was caught off guard by the news that she was four months along.

According to an excerpt from her memoir obtained by People, Keys writes that she told her doctor she “wasn’t ready” for the news when she found out, and the timing wasn’t exactly ideal.

“‘This is the worst time ever,'” she recalls telling her doctor. “‘I’m working on my next album. My husband just got into Harvard Business School. And I’ve been drinking — a lot.’ I left her office feeling so torn.”

“The music I was creating felt more important and urgent than just about everything,” she continues, referencing her 2016 album, Here. “I’d have to put off its release for at least a year if I chose to have the baby.”

But Keys says she decided to go through with her pregnancy when she went into the studio one night and listened to a song she and her husband wrote called “More Than We Know.”

“The lyrics are about how we’re capable of so much more than we can ever imagine,” she writes. “My eyes filled with tears. How could I take away the potential for this beautiful child, this light that could touch others in ways I couldn’t dream of.”

“For me, the song was a powerful message that I should go on with the pregnancy,” she continued. {ET}